Please hang up and try again...
September 06, 2002 12:06 a.m.
Maybe I was mistaken. Maybe I can't do this. Maybe I'm making a huge mistake that I will regret for the rest of my life. My heart is weeping for all the lost moments I've given up for the sake of propriety. I want to scream, It's over! No more! No more giving of myself. For once, I'm going to be selfish. I'm going to let myself breathe. I'm going to stop and really take a rest, not just a breather. I'm not letting the world walk all over me. I'm not letting you take the best moments of my life and pervert them to some sick ideation of what a responsible young adult should behave like.Even though I want to do all this, I know I won't. I'll be a good model citizen. I'll teach my classes, take my courses, and try to color within the lines. I'll get up with the alarm clock after I've gone to sleep with the rooster in an attempt to get all my work done. I'll even let myself be subverted into staying silent in the face of opposition. Not because I don't care, but because I care too much.
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