elegance
May 22, 2002 3:47 a.m.
As I tried to make my new room a litte more 'homey' tonight (any place that has an echo is too empty to live in), I found the note card that Cristin and Kerri-Leigh gave me at the last show of "The Children's Hour". On the front, there is a quote by Maya Angelou. "Surviving is important. Thriving is elegant."As I sit here in this cold, cold room. I question whether or not I have accomplished something I wanted to. I wanted to escape, to run from home and never look back. To get away from the darkness and everything that has terrified and haunted me for so long. I didn't succeed. I've learned, though, that you cannot run away from these type of things. They follow you, and they will follow you for eternity unless you face them head on and deal with them. Maybe that is the most important lesson I have learned in the past year.
I've learned much, and grown in maturity and grace. I've explored ideas I had never thought to imagine. I've lowered my facade and showed someone what I really felt. I've been able to shed a tear about the past while still looking forward to the future. I have desired to go into my own future.
Perhaps I am not elegant on the outside. But, I have not only survived in a new world and a new life. I have thrived.
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